Get to Know ME

I am twenty years old and let's face it, this shit is hard.

Remember when you were a little girl or boy and all you wanted was to be treated like a grownup? I do. I remember vividly telling my dad I wasn't his baby girl anymore, in fact I was almost ten and should be allowed to stay up for as long as I wanted to. Like the wonderful father that he is, he let me stay up a whole ten minutes later then usual and I felt so happy with my accomplishment when I finally dozed off to sleep, unable to keep my eyes open any longer. That's the thing with being a kid, you get small wins and you cherish them as if they are ultimate victories. My extra ten minutes meant the world to be and from that day I believe that doing what I wanted and becoming an adult was going to be this awesome thing and it could not happen fast enough. Jokes on me. 

I am now twenty, living in my first apartment with two friends and the world is crashing down - and the crashing isn't anything new. Because let's face it, there are a lot of people out there who hit puberty and life treats them right from there on out. Just not all of us. If you are like me, life's been knocking you down for quite some time now. Puberty didn't make it all better, actually it made it worse - a hell of a lot worse. Now I'm not saying the world is horrible (except when it is) because there are good times. Sadly they appear to be few and far between that by the time they finally show up, you barely recognize it and try to fight it off in fear that it's a storm and not a rainbow. 

Maybe it's just me, but I'm pretty sure I'm not alone. Trust me, it took a long time for me to realize that I wasn't alone in all this and for me to put it into words and share it with the world is a great achievement with me and I hope it is with you too. 

So there's a little about me, not entirely sure it helped all that much but don't you fret - if you continue reading this blog, you'll learn more and more about me and hopefully my shortcomings and hard falls can help you or even give you a reason to believe that you are not alone.

I am a twenty year old girl, riddle with insecurities and a bucket load of issues but that's okay - I'm learning to deal with it.

Sincerely,

             The New Girl